You are not a little boy anymore.. Are you- I Read this online at yahoo groups

But you know you're strong. You won't fall before the wind -
even though it's strong - and you won't bow or twist either.

You know that you don't really give damn. You know that if they
scream in your face for years, you will do what you particularly
want. You know that they're all full of mistakes and their
disadvantages and weaknesses are incountable.

You aren't a little boy anymore. You can live on your own and you
can control your little world, even though you can't control your
own soul.

They hate you, So what? Screw them. And even if they like you,
Fuck them!

Does this sound Paranoid? Yea. So be it..

And you will live for a long time and you will grow up. And you
will succeed and you will fail and you will learn a lot of things
and gain a lot of experience.

You aren't a little boy anymore and you know it. They can't annoy
you, and you know it..
So why....? Why do you now walk alone by the sea? Why do you
stare in the darkness? Why do you imagine things? Why do you
sigh?

Don't speak to me of the ones who don't hate you still, don't
speak to me of how pretty the world is..Tell me why do you follow
the birds with your eyes?

Tell me what's wrong and tell me why do you cry....

To an old friend

She sat on the edge of her chair, in her dark apartment. Her hair tumbled down her face, cascading black velvet on a sea of smooth fair skin. What was it that ran down her cheek then.. a tear.. was it ?

It has been a while..has it not old friend.
Trust things are better now. I have no soothing words to offer you
right now, no generic platitudes on life which will tide you over
difficult times. You know what you have to do, and are strong enough
to do it. I will feel honored if you think of me when you get
overwhelmed again .

Our loves, our lives, our directions are different. Hell, we even see
different stars now do we not ! But know this,that on every one of
those stars, I pray for you.
Know that not a day goes by when I do not think of you. For fleeting
moments yes, mostly for a second, sometimes, rarely, for a minute.

I do not know what to say to you right now, and you know you have to
fight this battle alone. But know that through these words I send you
hope, strength, prayers and perseverance. Sorry I could not do more.
Sorry I could not be there with you through these times. Hope you will allow
me this one moment of guilt and will not think me a bad person for not
doing all that I have said earlier.

You know, you have doubted god in your writings. You should. But know
this, that if there is a god, if there is some overpowering being who
guides all our actions and arranges all our co-incidences to happen,
like pawns on a chess board, then he definitely has a plan for you.
And I believe that part of that plan is for you to go through all this
to come closer as a family. Again, I know these are empty words to
someone who is going through the pain. But it is all I can do , short
of living your life for you. There is much to be said on this subject,
but I shall let it rest here.

I like how your body
Feels next to
My body

Our flesh entwined together
In this dance of decaying ecstasy

I like how it feels that a million
Fire flies erupt into little
Fragments
that rise up
When we touch

It is a game we play, love
And here, I will let you win

Loki

In the caverns beneath the planet..he lies, writhing beneath snake venom..
As we look at him... we are left to wonder... could he have chosen differently

Is all human endeavor doomed to failure... or are we capable enough of rising above our base natures and acting opposite to our "genetic" programming